Big fat Liar

I am a fat man. I was 321 pounds, now I'm closer to 230 pounds, but I'm still fat and will always feel that way. I was a fat baby, a fat teen and a fat adult. I spent my life denying I was fat. I always looked at my big arms and chest and told myself i was strong. My huge calves (they supported 300 + pounds , of course they were strong) were a pride. It took my highly elevated blood pressure for me to wake up and smell the pasta, bread, potatoes. I wanted to live longer for my kids and so i lost weight.

Was it easy? No. Is it temporary? Who knows? It is a day to day battle. I avoid Starbucks on the way home, so i am not tempted by a Foo Foo Drink. If there are donuts at work, I stare at them all day or break a piece off and rationalize that I ate only half. If there is food around, I want to eat it. So I leave almonds and apples at work, in order to not eat crap.

I was big fat liar, I thought I was fit, of course I was not. My health has been impacted and I had to change. Many of you out there have the same issue. It is tough and I am sure many of you are sad, depressed and in need of change. Feel free to post or offer one and other advice. This is not a place to be judgmental. it is a place for fat, formerly fat, temporarily non fat folks to help one and other and maybe just to rant about the day to day issues we face. We are allowed to be big and fat, let's just not be big fat liars!